I've been feeling really restless lately. I fell like there's so much I want to do, but instead I'm trapped in a predictable, routine summer controlled largely by my parents. I have obligations I don't even care about and responsibilities that honestly mean nothing to me. I can probably list what I've done this summer on one hand. I feel like I've wasted my time. I want an adventure. I want to do something new and exciting. I want to get away from my boring everyday life as long as I'm young and still can. I'm honestly very excited to go back to school just because I feel it will be much more exciting. I'll have at least 7 different activities, a job, and classes, and I'll be working out and giving tours of campus. I'll get to hang out with anyone at anytime. I'll set my own rules and boundaries and take responsibility for my own actions. I won't be responsible for someone else's concerns. My obligations will be toward things I actually care about, and I'll be able to do something new if I get bored.

If there's one thing I don't like about going to St. Mary's, it's that I can't permanently move out of the house until I graduate. Spring break and the beginning of summer were ok, but every other break was a pain, and this summer has gotten far too long. I love my family, but I'm just so sick of living at home and having my life run for me. I considered the idea of getting an apartment in Winona if I don't get the internship at the Star Tribune, but I don't want to be that far away from my family and friends. At least next summer will feel shorter if I'm in Spain for the month of May...

I'm so sick and tired of not having control over my life.

I'm too tired to complain anymore.

To end on a bright note: I ran the VillageFest 5k yesterday and it felt amazing!! I ran the entire thing, stopping once to tie my shoe. I finished with a time of 28:01 (9:03 pace), which is waaay better than i expected. :)