Sunday, October 25, 2009

It's been a long time since I've written, but I don't want to have to take time to go over everything I've missed to get to my point, so... S.O.U.L. was fun, I'm going home for Thanksgiving now and I still don't know what to do with my life. Oh, and I may not do long-term volunteering now.

Senior year really isn't turning out the way I expected it to. I see my roommates less than I did when we didn't live together, and things aren't going all that smoothly with that; I STILL haven't gone to the apple orchard , but my friends have gone without me; I feel 10x busier even though I don't think my responsibilities have changed too much; I'm always tired and cranky, but I can't imagine giving up anything; oh, and I spend probably around 40% of my nights alone in the village. I miss random adventures with my friends. I miss staying up late talking about anything and everything. I miss watching FRIENDS for hours on end.

We were going to have a girls night the first week back, and that still hasn't happened. We haven't had any random dance parties (unless you count the night Molly and I did aerobics in the living room while watching Richard Simmons on YouTube). We haven't gone to Perkins once. We have gone to Ground Round, but only so everyone else could drink. My roommates spend their weekends either with their boyfriends or at the bars... and when it's not one of those, they're too tired to do anything.

I'm sick of my classes and really don't think I'm getting much out of them anymore. I'm bored with having so many journalism/PR classes, especially now that I know I don't want to write for a newspaper (and I'm not a PR major anyway). I don't like sitting still and listening to someone talk at me. I participate in discussions, but only because I know the answers and it keeps me a little more focused.

I miss my family. A lot. Phone calls aren't the same though.

Maybe things will be better next semester when I don't have my internship and will have no more than one class on Fridays. As long as I can do Photo Digital Imaging as an independent study so I don't have to take Case Studies in PR...

Friday, October 9, 2009

October break - S.O.U.L.

I'm trying to convince myself that going on this S.O.U.L. trip is the best thing for me. In almost any situation, this would be easy. However, I have been feeling very overwhelmed lately, and I haven't been sleeping well, and a break would be really nice right about now.

If I were all packed I'd go to sleep now. It's hard to fit everything I'm going to need between now and Tuesday (which is quite a bit considering we're camping out and it's supposed to snow) into a duffle bag and a backpack... especially when all I want to do is sleep.

Meanwhile, I spent yet another night alone in 212. It's getting to be a little ridiculous that I saw my current roommates more last year when I didn't live with them than I do now.

Now I'm just getting cranky. I need to finish packing. (We leave at 8am tomorrow.)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

My faith has always been an important part of my life, but in the last couple months it has really become my main focus. I like that. :)