I went to Grand March yesterday...it was really weird to be back. I think that was my first time in the auditorium since senior awards day on the last day of school. It was weird to listen to TK announcing names and to see so many people from high school. The weirdest was sitting with a bunch of people from my class (most of them people i never really talked to). The whole thing felt a little surreal.

I am very glad to be done with high school. I'm glad to be done with all the drama and the shallow and insignificant worries. I used to think about the most pointless things and worry about things that really didn't matter. I don't know...I just feel so much more grown up now.

I also hung out with some of my high school friends last night. I was at least a little bit right with that fear I mentioned a few entires ago... we're all kind of growing apart. We're changing in different ways and I feel like we have less and less in common. We still have enough in common to hang out and talk and all that, but there's a definite difference. It's kind of sad.

There are still so many things I haven't been able to let go of. I had put all my high school awards and pictures and things away in a box, figuring they didn't define me anymore...then my parents got me furniture that included a lot of shelf space, so i pulled most of that stuff back out. It feels like a shame to hide away all my hard work. But looking at it all now, it's just kind of strange to me. It feels like it all belongs to a completely different person. That's not really me anymore. I'm no longer the volleyball captain MVP. I'm no longer the uber-competitive speech state finalist. I'm no longer the STA student of the month. I even have the little homecoming footballs. Basically, anything that won't fit in a scrapbook. Anyway, I'm not sure what my point was in all that. I just think it's weird that I'm so happy to move on in my life and let go of high school, but I still keep so many memories around from that time. I guess I'm not sure when I'm supposed to let go. I don't think I'm completely ready yet, but how long do I get?