Sunday, November 30, 2008

It must be weird to be a parent. First you have a tiny baby that needs you for everything. You feed it, change it, clothe it, and protect it. You watch this baby grow until it can move around on its own and talk. Eventually this kid starts making decisions, though you still make the majority of the decisions for him/her. Then the kid starts thinking. You remember a time when the kid couldn't think, and suddenly the kid is thinking many things, and you don't always know what they are. Fast forward a lot and suddenly your kid is a young adult who can talk, think, rationalize, decide, and care for him/herself.

I find it kind of weird to have real conversations with my parents lately. I almost don't blame them for not treating me like an adult... considering they still vividly remember me as anything but an adult. Really, they don't even know how much I've changed since going off to college. They don't know how I think differently and choose differently and act differently. I said I almost don't blame them. I don't think they can get off not respecting me just because of who I used to be. Just because they remember a little girl throwing tantrums and making excuses doesn't mean that they can't respect the fact that I can now have a reasonable discussion and can make decisions for myself. Yes, I still have a lot of learning to do, but this isn't really an all-or-nothing thing. You can't hold me back as though I were a 12 year-old kid, and you can't just throw me out there as if I've been out in the real world for a good decade.

I sometimes wonder about how much truth is hidden in someone's words when they're "teasing" you. I'm sorry, but I don't think you should ever "tease" someone by saying you never thought they'd amount to anything. (and last I heard, kids should be reading more)

It's snowing out. It's such a pretty snow too.... like a perfect winter wonderland.

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