I'm having one of those days where one thing doesn't go my way and suddenly I'm doubting everything.

I didn't get the internship at the Star Tribune. I'm sending my application for the internship at the Pioneer Press today, but I really wanted to get the one at the Strib. Now I'm even more nervous about the personal statement I have to write for the Press. I'm also so much more nervous about graduating next year and trying to find a job at a paper. I really want to work at a bigger daily.

I hope it's not too late to apply for the Washington, D.C. internship my advisor told me about earlier this year. I'd have to pay for it, but it would definitely be worth it. He wasn't in his office when I went to talk to him, so I'll have to wait to find out about that.

There's also an internship at WCCO or MPR if I want to check out broadcast, but you'd think preference would go to people majoring in broadcast. Besides, the WCCO one doesn't pay. I know nothing about the MPR one; my dad just told me about it.

I was never really worried about finding work as a journalist, but now I'm absolutely terrified.