There is so much I'd like to blog about right now. I have so much on my mind that I've been itching to write about for a while now, but my blog hasn't been the best place to express my thoughts and feelings lately. I can't just write and leave it be anymore. What can I say...?

I've been sick this week. I got kicked out of the "Cardinal" office Monday night for being too pale, and I spent the entire day yesterday in my village. I missed out on the last night of hard-core editing, which turned out to be a little bit annoying with final edits today. I tried really hard to read while I had the place to myself with no music or conversation to distract me, but I really couldn't focus. I tried doing a PR blog entry, but I just couldn't do that either. I expected that assignment to be easy, but I'm learning that it really isn't. I find it very hard to think like a public relations practicioner as a journalism major. Even though I no longer want to work for a newspaper, I am still very protective of the media and tend to take its side. Public relations has gotten in my way in the past with the "Cardinal," and I tend to get annoyed by some of the things we discuss in PR classes. This makes it surprisingly difficult to blog about issues in PR. I can't explain it, but I need to get over it as soon as possible if I don't want my grade to suffer.

I miss running. I've either been too busy, exhausted, or sick to run lately, and it has me antsy and anxious to get out running again. I haven't even been able to go to lacrosse practice this week, and it's more upsetting than it probably should be.

I'm starting to find myself with more of an opinion on things lately, and I'm more likely to stand up for that opinion. I'm standing my ground more, even on small matters, and it makes me feel ready to get out in the world. I find myself more and more anxious for graduation. My resume is ready to go; I just need to write my cover letter and start sending it out.

I miss random adventures. I really can't wait for my roommates to be done student teaching so things can go back to normal. We used to have so much fun finding the most random things to do, but this semester's been a bit of a dud. During the day we're all in class, evenings are spent at meetings, and at night everyone's working on lesson plans, hanging out with their boyfriends, or getting ready for bed. I'm starting to think having to listen to all of my roommates casually mention their boyfriends all the time is worse than my family constantly asking me if I have a boyfriend yet. At least when my family's just asking questions I don't end up home alone watching movies on a regular basis. I still believe I am just fine without a boyfriend... I just sometimes resent the fact that my roommates have them. I miss hanging out with my roommates.

I suppose I have plenty of things I should be working on right now. I need to start being more productive.