Thursday, January 1, 2009

Welcome to 2009

My one official resolution is still to be happy with who I am. I'd say I'm generally there already, but there are still those days when I just don't feel good enough for my own standards (and I have pretty high standards for pretty much everything).

I don't think I want to be a journalist anymore...? I love writing and finding information, but I also like stability and a more controlled office-type environment. Goodness I change my mind a lot, I know. I just feel like there are so many other things I could do that might be more... comfortable? Reporters, and even editors, don't make a lot of money. They work irregular hours and even work weekends. I don't think I want that, especially way down the road when I have a family and whatnot.

I've been thinking a lot about my options... I feel like I have many, and that makes me feel a lot better. I've been looking up so many different companies and grad schools. I'm also trying to think about ways I can study abroad... namely, international grad schools. I'm also trying to figure out what exactly I would study. I have plenty of ideas... I just need to think about what would be the most practical and the most useful. There are so many things that interest me, and I really do like learning new things. I think it'll be easier to study more in grad school without my many clubs and activities too. As long as I'm focused primarily on my studies, I think I could be pretty successful with just about anything that isn't math or science. I'll probably do something business-related (maybe international business).

It's weird to change directions so quickly. I was so gung-ho about journalism and working for a newspaper. I think I get a little carried away when I'm excited about something and don't really think things through completely. I'm still very happy majoring in journalism. I'm learning many important skills and could probably get a job at many non-newspaper companies anyway. I still think I could like working at a newspaper, but I'm not so sure it's what I really want anymore. I'm still hoping to get that internship at the Pioneer Press. I think it would definitely help me figure some stuff out. However, I won't be quite as devastated if I don't get it. It's only fair that such a great opportunity go to someone who really wants to write for a newspaper.

I'm going to have a lot to think about for the next year at least. I think I'm also going to resolve to make good, responsible decisions in 2009. It's about time I really start acting like an adult (while still having fun, of course!).

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