I'm usually excited for my birthday. That's not really the case this year. I actually wouldn't mind just skipping my birthday altogether. I kind of feel like I won't notice either way. Who cares about someone's 20th birthday when everyone else is turning 21?

I did not want to wake up this morning. I know that's my struggle almost every morning, but today I woke up way before I needed to and realized I didn't want to wake up because that would make it Monday, and I wasn't ready for this week to start. I'm not sure what I'm dreading so much about this week. I don't really think it's my three tests... I'm really not too worried about them. I'm a little nervous for my philosophy test, since I'm not really sure what to expect, but it's not bad enough to stress me out. (I'm not studying right now, am I?) I really think I just want to avoid my birthday. If I could just skip to next week... or to February break... or to Easter break. I've been feeling a little homesick lately. I miss seeing my family and going to Dolina rehearsals. I miss shopping and just having some 'me' time. I'm almost never alone here, and while I usually like being around other people, I've just gotten to a point now where I feel overwhelmed. I need some time alone.

I feel really out of it today. I just can't shake my ... "I-don't-care" ?... mood. I guess I feel a little burned out, but I don't know why. It's not like I've been working hard or stressing over school or anything. I'm just kind of caught in a rut. Maybe doing something a little different this weekend made me realize how boring my life has gotten. It was a fun weekend though...

Next weekend is going to suck. I work Friday night, and then Saturday is Battle of the Bands. I get to spend my birthday setting up and cleaning up for something I was so bummed to miss last year but don't really care to see this year. Funny how that happens. Then Sunday it looks like I'll be hosting a prospective student. Joy.

I'm so not in a good mood today. I didn't get to run either. After classes I worked on publicity for Winter Week. Then I went to coach speech, where both of the kids were no-shows because they had nothing ready. Then I worked on more publicity, ate yet another crappy meal in the cafeteria, and worked on publicity some more. Now I have 45 minutes to kill before the SAC meeting, and after that I have to do my Stats homework and study for my test tomorrow. Hopefully it won't take long.

I do NOT want to go to my bio. lab tomorrow. Ugh I always seem to forget about that. :(